so fast been 2 years.
still remember that day. the days went to hospital emergency room.
its not first time but this picture date is 4th time.
last time back to 2016 i was so stressed and so tired of everything.
anxiety came to me.. most of them happens when i driving alone and jam time. first time im scared lucky the hospital is just nearby me and went there, once i get into the hospital i feel better and calmed. then i decided to leave and thought it just normal thing happen when stress.
second time is on middle of night, really suffer from that, all hand and legs crammed, went to nearest hospital and the nurse check me in at tri-age. the nurse tell me its normal, no need to seek for consultation, ask me come back tomorrow for a full body checkup. and i just left like that, glad im fine.
third time is on the way home too, another tri-age and no consultation done.
and the final fourth time, whole body went down, really worst and doctor give me a full ecg, consultation. and the final conclusion is im on stressed and its called light anxiety and panic attack. the doctor said i need to relax and take some real good rest, stop thinking any unnecessary stuff. and gave me some medicine, just to take it when it anxiety panic attact occurred and necessary, else just drink some water, breath and relax. the moment it occur it really feel like to death.
been two years, lucky it never happens anymore since i quit my previous job. maybe because now i doing my own thing, more time to rest and no more stress on those past periods.
i still carrying this medicine around me all the time. been 2 year this little one never leave my side, feel safe with it.
this is the thing i never tell anyone.
